a little bit of my feeling

I'm doing the same routine day and night everyday, not knowing my directions, my goals my everything. I know just what I'm trying to achieve now but is a lengthy and bored journey towards it. I'm bored with the hectic yet stressful, tiring and colourless life. I'm just not the person who can deal with this, is just too tough and difficult. Looking at it and realizing that is definitely getting tougher each day. I'm just about to fall, I'm falling.. He is here to rescue me, from the dominion of darkness into the kingdom of wisdom. I wanted so much to be just alone, clear thoughts and get ready to go again. Rebuild faith, build a stronger and higher wall. If you look to others for fulfillment, you will never be truly fulfilled. Search direction and heads towards it. We have to first believe in ourselve. If is not you, who? If is not now, when? Reality is faced by everyone, but only capitalized by some. The more you do it, the better you get it! If you want something you have never had, you will have to do something you have never done. Life is not about finding, but creating. Till the end, everything will still be fine. No matter how miserable, Life Goes On.!


" Live well ; love much ; laugh often "

hold on!

Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it ; live through it and life is just prefect.. there's is always something, or a lot of thing, we cant manage to do so; we cant manage to achieve; we cant manage to owned.. For doing things you love and it matters, what else is greater.. No matter what we do, what is happening to us, flows from it..!!

a little thing of tonight

when i recall the past, the wonderful moments that we spent together, every little thing that we did together, every little arguement between us.. these are all what we call, memories.. my firend, get over it, is the past and we should always move forward.. what is past, is past, let it be.. it doesn't matter that I'm with you or I'm not, as long as we are once together. That's is enough to fill up our memories our life. in life, there's many many more, this is just a little part of it.. In your entire life, there might be millions of visitors, but there are just visitors, they don't mean to stay and be there for you forever, God has planned everything, you will meet somebody some day.. so, get over it my friend, don't dwell in the past.. lets move on together alright..? It doens't mean that we are all over all done, we are still friends, if you miss me you thought of me, feel free to text me, I will never say 'no'.. we learn from mistake, lets take this as a lesson a beautiful lesson, we will have more opportunity in the near future.. More doesn't mean you are the champion, so don't get one just because you want one.. when it comes it comes, is all about fate my friend. knowledge is very important, it will lead us to a better future yet better life, so for now, lets just try our best in what are we doing now and of course everything.. I did not throw you away, i just put you, put us in my memory.. heart you always.. my friend.. hugs...
hope you understand, lets just move on and you will achieve something or mayb someone even better.. I m sorry..! take care..

home sweet home

the first thing i reach kuantan, i realized the fresh air, i inhale fresh sir..!! I drove around kuantan, go pasar eat nice food., like a tourist.. my bed, my house, my room, my maid, my air con, my friends, my cat, my sofa, my plasma.. i will come back every weekend man, or omay 2 to 3 times a month..!! i love kuantan..

the best thing of national service

The best thing of being in national service is not just that we gain experience, we meet new friends, learn to be independent.. Is that life there is no stress, no pressure.. everything is plan and arrange for you day and night and we just need to follow, all activities, 6meals a day, my 3months there, i enjoyed myself like shit, i meet tons of friends, trainers, i have fun.. they pampered me like shit i love it, i love it.. 3months is never enough, I would like, i would love to have another year, 10years or more of life like this, without stress and pressure, and do not need any thinking and worries,. College life somehow is so stressful for me, i can feel all the pressure from all fields.. life is hectic, life is tiring, life now is nothing wonderful like the 3months i have in national service, and that's why, i miss life in national service, surrounded by friends and trainers, family on weekends, i couldn't find a word or a sentences to describe how much i love life in national service,..

everything is easy just by saying., easy to say, difficult to do..

" be always humble, gentle and patient, show your love by being tolerant with one another, do your best to preserve the unity with the spirit..." " my teaching will give you a long and prosperous life, never let go of layalty and faithfulness, tie them round your neck, write them on your heart... be rational, avoid adultery, don't be lazy, be honest, be generous, avoid sin...

-just crapping-