Looking at the rain drops falling onto the ground, just like the tears dripping deep in my heart. Feeling the wind blew and move with the trees, just like I can't stand up still anymore. I lost my soul and I lost my mind, once imagining myself fall from seventh floor. Just like the rainy days, sudden pouring rain and sudden sunny day. It seems that something has happend or has been happening is a problem that have to endure and is difficult to overcome. I m sitting here looking out the window, with an empty mind, loosing all my faith. I tried to talk I tried to scream but it just doesn't seems success. My hands going towards the cupboard door making so much noise just for the sake of letting it out. Never know but nothing less, the world is coming out so cold, so cold. Everything I try to say but no one listen anyway. Sadness like the water raining down on the ground everyday just like the monsoon season now. Things just come all together and I just can't help but stuggling so badly in the inside. I have no words to describe what and how I'm feeling but just that I don't feel right at all times. Jumping into the big pool make me feels so much better as I felt no stress no pressure. Looking at the rain fall, looking at the dull sky, feeling extremely empty, looking in the mirror feeling so pain and tired. Standing under the pouring rain looking up at the sky, I see myself so helpless far out there. I love the rain pouring on my skin I love the breeze blewing towards me. Maybe it's because I'm crazy maybe it's because I just can't. Dear keep me busy just keep me busy please, never allow me to stop down and start thinking as it will never end once it start. I know you care but I have nothing to say, as I really don't know what I'm going through and what is in my mind. Just keep a accompany keep me accompany, so much like a big brother and I will be better each and everyday. Is all about attitute isn't it? Sadness like the water raining down.
