merry christmas

today

Today seems to be a little too calm,
Stillness
But I like every moment in the silence.
Woke up to a beautiful morning,
Crack of dawn out the window
Make another magnificent day.

Step into the house after lunch,
Not liking the muddle everywhere.
Stuff undone had done
Stuff had to be done undone.

You
Plan your expedition base on a woman
Humiliation

Looking forward to a day
The day that I m home
A place with warmth and love
Without cold and hate
With parents and friends
Food and Christmas present.

Couldn't put in plain words
The feeling I felt
Just loving it
May time just stop here?
Without stress and tension
Without worried and thoughts
Breathtaking Monday

Pay your respect

Paying your respect isn't a difficult task.

So please. For Christ's sake.

Pay your respect, even the least, is more than enough.

Somehow,

I can't care too much

even I'm in charge.

And this is difficult.

*tutup mata*

Cloudy day

These days seems to be a little too stressful.

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Looking at the notes and the books,

Looking at the smart asses,

I just feel like smacking their butt

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Whenever I feel gloomy,

a great bowl of tau fu fa will do great to boost my mood. Edamame will be an alternative.

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" out of difficulties, make miracles "

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A strong positive mental attitude will create more miracles then any wonder drug.

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By changing the inner attitudes of one's minds, can change the aspects of one's lives.

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Live up to your potential instead of imitating someone else's.

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I'm still determined to be cheerful and happy, in whatever situation I may be, for I have also learned from experience that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions and not upon our circumstances.

Wake up in the morning, kiss you on the forehead, wish you a good day.

Upon thy cheek, I lay a zealous kiss.

A little of flower

Past two weeks seems to be a little not the same. And I've come to realised that all it need is just positive thinking.

Big thank to you who care and make talking to you so much fun.

The bird of paradise alights only upon the hand that does not grasp.

I never choose to spill my thoughts to anyone but you made me spilt on you. I somehow felt so good and never so good.

Life should have some sunshine and some flowers.

When it comes to a day when you feel not right, I know I have you here just here to help. You settle problems when you can handle it and you don't touch it when it handles you. The miracle is not to fly in the air, or walk on the water, but to walk on the earth. Forgive, my little jokes on thee, and I'll forgive thy great big one on me. I've promised, yes, I will try to be. You said you know and you understand, as we are similar before.

Like a blanket too short, you pull it up and your toes rebel. You yank it down and shivers meander about your shoulder, but cheerful folks draw their knees up and pass a comfortable night, is just all, in the mind. I sense and you sense too, you taught me something and i know you want me to get that. Yes, i get that. In every sense, there should be doubt. As we struggle to make sense of things, life looks on in repose.

Seconds after the day, melody seems to be more beautiful. Expect nothing, and live frugally on surprise. Because I have loved life, I shall have no sorrow but happy. There are basically moments in which you're in touch with the meaning of life, when your relationship to the rest of the universe make sense. Looking at the charmful smile with the cleanest mind, I felt like I just want to spend my life like you.

You fill my day with your smile and giggle. And I just enjoy every moment being with you. Even when is only 4hours. Your giggle never leave my mind, you touch never leave my receptors. I love you, Jaede.

You,

Don't let all things bother you and live a happy life. An hour that I'll never forget. Even if we looks like we don't care, but we both knew that we actually care, a lot.

You somehow laid on my mind when all this is laid out.

I trust you but I don't rely on you.

I like you but i don't like you that way. : )

And this, had just made another happy day.

what a week.

I m tired I m exhausted but somehow I just can't calm down my emotions I can't handle this frustration I can't sleep. All the stress that accumulates, somehow is killing me. All those restless nights, all those frustration, just never seems want to go away. I wish I may, I wish I can, I wish the world to stop right here, and let me sort things out, clear those thoughts, I wish I may, I wish I can, have a goodnight sleep. I wish I may, I wish I can, arise in a desire morning. My dictionary somehow lost the word- happy but build with stress and tensions. I m about to go crazy about to go insane about to go to hell. For Christ's sake, please., please let me go. Please set me free. Looking out the window trying so hard to tidy thoughts, but somehow it just doesn't seems to work so well. I need time I need rest in wonderland, I need comfort by the sweetest being, i need warmth being around a biggest hug. I need I need I need it so bad. I need a doctor if all this go on, as I already lost my mind. God bless me. I want to be just like the birds, flying around freely above the sky. I want to be just like a baby, being so pampered by everyone around. All I need all I want, is just words but nothing in reality. I want to go to a beach, with the strong sea breeze blowing on my skin, enjoy the nature of the world and have some fun.

break down in the inside

Starry starry night, sorrow shadow appear up at the starry starry sky. At this split second, I have no reason for myself but felt extremely empty extremely upset and exhausted. Sadness like fire burning in the heart. I hate to break down, nothing up ahead, out of middle of nowhere knowing I'm in trouble if this wheel stop rolling. For Christ's sake, help me keep me moving somehow. Never give me up, I made it this far without crying a single tear.

sudden touch

Looking at the rain drops falling onto the ground, just like the tears dripping deep in my heart. Feeling the wind blew and move with the trees, just like I can't stand up still anymore. I lost my soul and I lost my mind, once imagining myself fall from seventh floor. Just like the rainy days, sudden pouring rain and sudden sunny day. It seems that something has happend or has been happening is a problem that have to endure and is difficult to overcome. I m sitting here looking out the window, with an empty mind, loosing all my faith. I tried to talk I tried to scream but it just doesn't seems success. My hands going towards the cupboard door making so much noise just for the sake of letting it out. Never know but nothing less, the world is coming out so cold, so cold. Everything I try to say but no one listen anyway. Sadness like the water raining down on the ground everyday just like the monsoon season now. Things just come all together and I just can't help but stuggling so badly in the inside. I have no words to describe what and how I'm feeling but just that I don't feel right at all times. Jumping into the big pool make me feels so much better as I felt no stress no pressure. Looking at the rain fall, looking at the dull sky, feeling extremely empty, looking in the mirror feeling so pain and tired. Standing under the pouring rain looking up at the sky, I see myself so helpless far out there. I love the rain pouring on my skin I love the breeze blewing towards me. Maybe it's because I'm crazy maybe it's because I just can't. Dear keep me busy just keep me busy please, never allow me to stop down and start thinking as it will never end once it start. I know you care but I have nothing to say, as I really don't know what I'm going through and what is in my mind. Just keep a accompany keep me accompany, so much like a big brother and I will be better each and everyday. Is all about attitute isn't it? Sadness like the water raining down.

Just one word, stress!

Tiny thought

The collapsed feeling under my skin. There's that fallen heart feeling that rushed right through the moments where I should've been paying attention. Like an hourglass, eventually everything will hits the bottom, and all I can do, is just wait until someone comes around and turn it around. Life is simple, but is just not easy. Sometimes we have to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel. Sometimes we just have to go with, 'whatever happens, happens'. Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone. Do not be troubled about the future, for it is not yet come. Live in the present and make it so beautiful, that will be worth remembering. Words are just so easy to say but somehow, is just too hard to perform. People need people, and friends need friends. Just in knowing that someone cares and hold us close in their thoughts and prayers. But seems there is no such someone around. We rob ourselves of life's greatest need, when we lock up our heart, and I just did it. You trip me push me call my name on the street, I kept walking forward with my hands in a fist and words stuck in my mouth biting my lips closed. I never cry my eyes out almost never, for my mum and dad that I pull myself back into a piece. What is there so much to think of and so much to worry of? But I just can't help, things just appear in my mind and it keep me down. Forcing a smile on my face isn't that difficult anymore when I'm doing that always. Throwing all this back of my mind, there is happy moments spending time with you friends. You friends are those one who bring me back in line and not to make things complicated. I shall not lock up my heart and let you friends in yes I shall. I shall not look back and shall not look too far ahead when things now is not solve. Yes I shall. Whatever happens, happens. So lets call it a day and tomorrow is a fresh new wonderful start!

'm about to break down

My way ahead aren't clear at all that I couldn't see myself ahead..
I totally need some time to get things right and have a good rest..
Chemistry, economics and mathematics did bring me down at times..
I surrender.!
Difficulties.!!
There are two ways of meeting difficulties.
You alter the difficulties or you alter yourself to meet them.
To love what you do and feel that it matters—how could anything be more fun?
Failure, failure is an event, never a person.
Failure is a detour, not a dead-end street.
Failure is simply the opportunity to begin again, this time more intelligently.
Failure should be our teacher, not our undertaker.
Failure is delay, not defeat.
It is a temporary detour, not a dead end.

" easy to say difficult to do "

* You will never fail if you never give up *

Is all about the mind

If you want something you never had, you have to do something you had never done.!

Meet everything as a challenge, out of difficulties, make miracle..

Is your task, you have to complete it, is compulsory..

If is not you, then who?

If is not now, then when?

Don't ever allowed anything to keep you down,

never give up before you really try hard..

Just do it

Prove that you can,

You are untapped with potentials!

Stop complaining, and start solving it..

We can aspire to anything,

but we don't get it just because we want it,

I would rather spend my life close to the birds,

then waste it wishing I had wings!

Never let go never give up,

write them in your heart,

set them in your mind!

Let Him in,

and try together...

God bless!

is a sin

I awake to a wonderful day and I never allow any black spot on this wonderful day.
Is a sin, I'm so sorry, I felt bad, I felt guilty, I felt sinful...
I never ever want this to happen again, I promised, that I will try, I will..
I'm trying, trying and trying.
I'm sorry, my Lord, my parents, all my loved, I'm sorry!
I dare not to pray for the Lord to bless me, I dare not.
I'm such a devil, a sinful devil.
please forgive me~

Put on a happy face, today is a wonderful day!

Count your blessings, happiness is more likely to come from accepting what you have rather than trying to change what you have. Gratitude! Don't live for yourself alone, in order to be truly happy, you must stand for something larger than yourself. As life is a reciprocal exchange. To move forward you have to give back. To me, that is the greatest lesson of life, the secret is, 8hours of sleep, 8hours of work and 8hours of fun. Don't play the blame game, is not fun neither interesting. Condemnation is a happiness robber! Always be yourself when no one else can compared to the integrity of your own heart. Keep looking forward to the future to all you might be. Don't let old mistake or misfortune hold you down people! Forgive yourself and of course the others, then move on. Do not bothered or discourage by adversity, instead meet it as a challenge. Learn something new each day, be interested in others and what they might teach you but do not look for yourself in other people's approval. As far as who you are, and who you will become goes. The answer is within yourself, believe in yourself..! Believe in yourself and all you want to be. Don't let what other people say or do make you frown. Laugh as much as possible, let in the good times and get through the bad. Be happy with who you are and where you are, you are in the right place and your heart is leading you on the way to a great tomorrow! When the circumstances seem difficult, pull through them, this will make you stronger than you think!

TAKE THIS!

smile : )

life goen on

in three words and only three words i can sum up is, 'life goes on'..!
When everything are nicely done, I will be holding a bowl of tau fu fa, and that is when i can have some rest and less headache.

-angel in the sky, made comfort every night, made miracle -

Please!

I've been whining a lot recently. F*cking stressful life I'm going through these days. Just finish LAN exams last week and I m suppose to be happy that I finally get rid of it but then, things came up. Janda baik programme falls on the coming weekend, then, i have math mock in the following week. The week after I will be having 3hours drill chemistry extra class for two saturdays and universal children's day falls on one of the same weekend. End of the month i will be having my math and economics mock, then cehmistry mock on the following week. And all this is not the end of my busy and hectic yet stressful life, here comes to the headahce part, I've to find a new place to move, best by end of october, worse is end of december.! Please give me a break or just kill me. Finding a place in a nice and convenient environment is totally not easy.! Too little time, too much to be done, too much to concern, too tired! Although i have this 3weeks break starting from the second week of december, but it will be fill with extra classes and it will be a study break that i dont think i even have time to do christmas shopping for everyone and enjoy my christmas celebration. Then is new year, and here it goes, first semester exam, january. In this situation, who else on earth dont whine.? I m going to collapse in a bit.! May you get me out of this and bring me into a world of paradise where I can have a good rest. Amen~

* I need a break *

My mummy

-coming soon-

My 'ah pa'

After SPM examination, i served the national service, after completing the 3 months service, i worked part-time for 2 months, then is time for me to move on to the next step of my life, further studies in Help university College. Somewhere around end of June, my dad and I drove to kl, to register in Help institute, and look around for rooms foe let. My dad, he was so patient on that day, as we are not so fimiliar with damansara area, we actually do alot of wrong turns that day, eventually, we get to the college and registered, then we start finding rooms. We just randomly drove around, and look for rooms for rent. those near ones, walking distance are actually very expensive, so in the end we found this, is Desa Kiara Condo, for temporary due to the time left. 2th of July, I moved in here and that is the day I leave home. My dad, he called me every single day at 8:15. just to ask where are you? have you had your dinner? every single day without failure. once in a while, he will ask do i still have money as he knows i wont ask from him, he bank in me money once in a while, but at most rm700 per month. I know that his business was actually not so good recently, so I always try my very best not to spend so much, I spend every single cents thoughtfully. All the registeration fees, course fees, exam fees, rental and living expenses, he had paid alot, alot, alot.. And now, I had to find some place else to move, as at the first place staying here was temporary, as i m going to move to a further place at a cheaper rent, i need a car as is not convenient to take public trasnport anymore. In this case, i pity him more, he needs to come out with more money. I have a brother who is older than me by a year, so he is entering uni soon, which means, my dad, have to come out with more money. Life here alone was actually not as good as at home for sure, I'm slready here, away from home for nearly 4 months, but I go back kind of often as my dad has a friend who go back every weekend so i can just follow. He arrange me trasport to go home, arrage me transport to come back, pay for what I'm doing and call me everyday without failure. what more can I ask for? Before this, I always thinks that he give more love to my 2 older brothers, and I'm always the last to be seen. but in real, actually is not, I cant say he treat all his kids the same, but at least, now, i felt that i m not transporent, he see me. I'm proud for having him, as my dad. I love you!

* I will try my best not to let you down *

as long as u are happy, nothing else really matters more.

love love love this

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset

She's going off about something that you said

She doesnt get your humour like I do

I'm in the room, its a typical Tuesday night

I'm listening to the kind of music she doesnt like

And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts

She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers

Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find

That what you're lookin for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you

Been here all along so why can't you see?

You belong with me

You belong with me

Walkin the streets with you in your worn out jeans

I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be

Laughing on the park bench thinkin to myself

Hey isnt this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town

I havent seen it in awhile, since she brought you down

You say you find I know you better than that

Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers

She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers

Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find

That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you

Been here all along so why can't you see?

You belong with me

Standin by, waiting at your back door

All this time how could you not know that?

You belong with me

You belong with me

Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night

I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry

I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams

I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understand you?

Been here all along so why can't you see?

You belong with me

Standing by or waiting at your back door

All this time how could you not know that

You belong with meYou belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe

You belong with me

You belong with me

before and after

the one on the left, was 6 years ago.. the one on the right, was brand new.. casual, nice, simple, comfortable, affordable etc....

a little bit of my feeling

I'm doing the same routine day and night everyday, not knowing my directions, my goals my everything. I know just what I'm trying to achieve now but is a lengthy and bored journey towards it. I'm bored with the hectic yet stressful, tiring and colourless life. I'm just not the person who can deal with this, is just too tough and difficult. Looking at it and realizing that is definitely getting tougher each day. I'm just about to fall, I'm falling.. He is here to rescue me, from the dominion of darkness into the kingdom of wisdom. I wanted so much to be just alone, clear thoughts and get ready to go again. Rebuild faith, build a stronger and higher wall. If you look to others for fulfillment, you will never be truly fulfilled. Search direction and heads towards it. We have to first believe in ourselve. If is not you, who? If is not now, when? Reality is faced by everyone, but only capitalized by some. The more you do it, the better you get it! If you want something you have never had, you will have to do something you have never done. Life is not about finding, but creating. Till the end, everything will still be fine. No matter how miserable, Life Goes On.!


" Live well ; love much ; laugh often "

hold on!

Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it ; live through it and life is just prefect.. there's is always something, or a lot of thing, we cant manage to do so; we cant manage to achieve; we cant manage to owned.. For doing things you love and it matters, what else is greater.. No matter what we do, what is happening to us, flows from it..!!

a little thing of tonight

when i recall the past, the wonderful moments that we spent together, every little thing that we did together, every little arguement between us.. these are all what we call, memories.. my firend, get over it, is the past and we should always move forward.. what is past, is past, let it be.. it doesn't matter that I'm with you or I'm not, as long as we are once together. That's is enough to fill up our memories our life. in life, there's many many more, this is just a little part of it.. In your entire life, there might be millions of visitors, but there are just visitors, they don't mean to stay and be there for you forever, God has planned everything, you will meet somebody some day.. so, get over it my friend, don't dwell in the past.. lets move on together alright..? It doens't mean that we are all over all done, we are still friends, if you miss me you thought of me, feel free to text me, I will never say 'no'.. we learn from mistake, lets take this as a lesson a beautiful lesson, we will have more opportunity in the near future.. More doesn't mean you are the champion, so don't get one just because you want one.. when it comes it comes, is all about fate my friend. knowledge is very important, it will lead us to a better future yet better life, so for now, lets just try our best in what are we doing now and of course everything.. I did not throw you away, i just put you, put us in my memory.. heart you always.. my friend.. hugs...
hope you understand, lets just move on and you will achieve something or mayb someone even better.. I m sorry..! take care..

home sweet home

the first thing i reach kuantan, i realized the fresh air, i inhale fresh sir..!! I drove around kuantan, go pasar eat nice food., like a tourist.. my bed, my house, my room, my maid, my air con, my friends, my cat, my sofa, my plasma.. i will come back every weekend man, or omay 2 to 3 times a month..!! i love kuantan..

the best thing of national service

The best thing of being in national service is not just that we gain experience, we meet new friends, learn to be independent.. Is that life there is no stress, no pressure.. everything is plan and arrange for you day and night and we just need to follow, all activities, 6meals a day, my 3months there, i enjoyed myself like shit, i meet tons of friends, trainers, i have fun.. they pampered me like shit i love it, i love it.. 3months is never enough, I would like, i would love to have another year, 10years or more of life like this, without stress and pressure, and do not need any thinking and worries,. College life somehow is so stressful for me, i can feel all the pressure from all fields.. life is hectic, life is tiring, life now is nothing wonderful like the 3months i have in national service, and that's why, i miss life in national service, surrounded by friends and trainers, family on weekends, i couldn't find a word or a sentences to describe how much i love life in national service,..

everything is easy just by saying., easy to say, difficult to do..

" be always humble, gentle and patient, show your love by being tolerant with one another, do your best to preserve the unity with the spirit..." " my teaching will give you a long and prosperous life, never let go of layalty and faithfulness, tie them round your neck, write them on your heart... be rational, avoid adultery, don't be lazy, be honest, be generous, avoid sin...

-just crapping-

Difficulties are opportunities to better things; they are stepping stones to greater experience. Perhaps someday you will be thankful for some temporary failure in a particular direction. When one door closes, another always opens., hopefully..~

wisdom talk

Let go of your attachment to being right, and suddenly your mind is more open. You're able to benefit from the unique viewpoints of others, without being crippled by your own judgment. Mistakes are part of the dues that one pays for a full life. It's never too late—in fiction or in life—to revise. There are two ways of meeting difficulties. You alter the difficulties or you alter yourself to meet them. To love what you do and feel that it matters—how could anything be more fun? Failure, failure is an event, never a person. Failure is a detour, not a dead-end street. Failure is simply the opportunity to begin again, this time more intelligently. Failure should be our teacher, not our undertaker. Failure is delay, not defeat. It is a temporary detour, not a dead end. All life is an experiment. Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact. Life is easy, but don't take it easy. I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day. In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life. It goes on. Life is an opportunity, benefit from it. Life is beauty, admire it.Life is bliss, taste it. Life is a dream, realize it.Life is a challenge, meet it. Life is a duty, complete it.Life is a game, play it. Life is a promise, fulfill it.Life is sorrow, overcome it. Life is a song, sing it.Life is a struggle, accept it. Life is a tragedy, confront it.Life is an adventure, dare it. Life is luck, make it.Life is too precious, do not destroy it. Life is life, fight for it. You cannot discover the purpose of life by asking someone else - the only way you'll ever get the right answer is by asking yourself.

i m so gonna try asking for a car even though i dont reaaly want one.. just for the sake of the bus.. the bus is always hell full, today i m like standing outside of the bus.. so scary.. and bus is never punture, makes me late for class sometimes.. SUCKS.. hmm, life is tiring here and sickening.. the environment here is just too polluted, i cant stnd it i hate it.. if i stand outside for too long, i feel like, i want to vomit.,.. arghh..! Lousy cab driver went to the wrong place, double the price it should be.. wtf.. i m sick of the environment and public transport, but i do look forward for something, is just too fun being with u guys, laughter, joy.. i love my friends..~ and yea, i drop accounting, so currently i m taking math , chemistry and economics.. well, i like all of them, but i like them doesnt mean i will do good, ahahaa,.. prove to the world..!! out of difficultied, make miracle..!! God bless me..

Is the second week I'm started college in Help damansara, KL.. everything is going smooth except for transportation. I wake up 6 in the morning as i need to catch the bus at 7:25.. If i miss it, the next one will be 7:45 which I'll be late for class.. But everytime I'm late bcoz the 7:25 bus is always too full to fit everybody.. Rapid KL, i m so so sick of it.. what I hate the most was, the bus stop so far away, i have to walk 10mins to reach my place, hot and totally polluted environment.. I always get headache after all the "travel" to reach college, and home.. College, I made alot of new friends, there're all nice and friendly, funny, smart assess.. lol.. All lecturers are great, especially miss Lai and mr Lawrence.. lol.. The not so good thing was, just nerd but no hot dude.. ahaha, well.. who cares.. M&M minis is my snack that i chew everyday, is like drugs.. lol. i've been spending alot this days, books, photostat fees for the first semester, kitchen thing, ingredients to cook, transportation fees, wow..! my monthly allowance can cover the first month, the follow month then yes.. I can't imagine when the electric bill come.. I m empty, everything is $ $ $.. i've been spending my duit titikan peluh dan darah now since monthly allowance 'done' in 2 weeks.. i have to skip meals, eat roti for breakfast and lunch.. hopefully next month will be better la, but anyway i m considering loosing some weight, so skipping meals is helping.. lol.. the environment here is getting worse each day.. Studies, so far so good.. But i can feel the PRESSURE coming towards me, stressful la weh..! God bless me..~

second step

Is time to proceed to the next step., i've graduated and now proceeding to a higher level of education.. next month college start, i've not make up my mind what subject to take, i'm still worry still afraid that i might not get a good grade.. is just so stress and so many pressure, the course not even start yet and i can feel all this pressure, God sake.. next week i've to step out to the world, to see the real world.. It'll be tough, but is a process of life, no one can run away from it.. I've to try, and try again,. try hard try even harder.. HOPEFULLY, hopefully everything will just be fine.. God bless~

life like now is coming to the end, and new one is waiting for me right ahead.., may all turn out wonderfully, in fact, if I can adapt, wonderful is a given...

random

i'll never understand your overflowing silliness, i just enjoy them so much.. Your overflowing silliness making me happy everyday, you make me enjoy my day.. Is my pleasure meeting you, i appreciate you as a friend..

:next:

i'll never know what is in your heart, i know you know me very well and you are glad that i've changed so much, I thank you very much for giving me support at all times, I thank you very much that you be my listener when I lost my direction ahead.. You are such a friend that meant so much to me, i appreciate you as a friend, we both go through so much together.. ahhaha..

:next:

we are once together, but you are never a part of my life and I'm never a part of yours..

salary

lol, my salary for the bonanza week, i just got it today..

weee...~ ahhaha...

eye infection

lol, i have this eye infection since saturday night, it got worse today so i went to consult a doctor, all together 5 medicine, 3 type of pills, a eye drop and a eye cream.. lol.. all together HKD 260.. Is so painful..! I have fever as well, lol.. It might be swine flu., waa... So scary..! touch wood touch wood..~

swine flu

Swine flu..! Lol.. I m wearing the mask to prevent swine flu, the sun glasses, is because I have red swollen eye.. I have to wear the sun glasses wherever I go.., at times I act like a blind people, I am not so good at it but the funny thing is, a women walk across me and say, ' pity her, she is blind'.. hahahaha.. I went to Mong Kok from Tsim Sha Tsui by MRT., 5 hong kong dollar.. Do some shopping, bought a pair of clothing.. not really enjoying today because my eye is painful and itchy.., a tiring day though, been walking for 7 hours.. LOL..

Hong Kong

I arrived at Macau 8:05pm, I took the bus to the ferry terminal and took the 10:15 ferry to Hong Kong.. I arrived at Hong Kong at 12am and took a cab to the hotel.. Along the street is still busy although is already 12+ at night.. Nearby the hotel I'm staying has lots of pub, i saw people drink drunk then vomit.. LOL... Then i went to the 7-11 to get some drinks and snack, i took this photo in front of the 7-11., Prat Avenue, Tsim Sha Tsui, Hong Kong.. Is been a long and tiring day.. ciao~

Butterfly on prat, the hotel I checked in in Hong Kong.. Surprisingly, the toilet is transparent, you can clearly see inside, when people is taking a shower, doing a big job, pinching their pimples, all you can see.. I called the guest service and ask bout it, they said they can paste it with papers, so is paste up eventually.. This is a new hotel which opened on Dec 2008., the latest style of a hotel.., only suitable for honeymoon i think.. hahaha...Overall, this hotel is nice and comfortable.., 24 hours free wi-fi in every room, 24 hours gym room.. Boleh la.. LOL.. I will be staying here for 4days 3 nights.. Yay~

nepal language lesson

one- ek
two- twi
three- tin
four- char
five- pach
six- cho
seven- sat
eight- art
nine- nau
ten- das
eleven- eagara
twelfth- bara
thirteen- eera
fourteen- chauda
fifteen- pandra

I'm still learning, ciao~

Labour Day

Is labour day, public holiday.. I m working today for triple pay, LOL.. hmm, the curry promotion starts today and is labour day so sushi king is very busy.. Is full of customer like the food is free.. LOL.. Some customers are just so not patient that the table is not clean up yet and they sit down,. Some customers can't wait for their food to be serve and leave.. Is too busy until the order in the kitchen is full and stuck, the order list in the kitchen is so long, well, good yet delicious food have to wait.. hmm, actually is just not a suitable day to pay a visit at sushi king.. Since is a public holiday, some service crew took holidays which means, not enough workers.. I'm working noon shift so is 12 to 6pm, i don''t mind continue working night shift but the manager says no, because I'm a part time so i get triple pay.. hahahaha.. Is my last day today, i took a one week holidays, I bet everyone miss me very much.. 'perasannye'.. Bluek :) Is tiring today, but I have lots of fun.. I enjoy every working days as I met new friends, encounter new challenge, and realized there's lots of silly customers.. Look forward for next saturday, I start work again.. I enjoy life like now but it will end by July.. Nvm la, just a part of life experience.. 'ma chicken ne' nepal language that I learn from those nepal kitchen crews.. The meaning, secret.. hehehe.. ciao~

Sushi King Curry Promotion

From 1st May till 31st May,, sushi king is having this curry promotion, i've try it.. Is delicious... 8 different choices, firstly which is my favourite, beef omelette, serve on hot plate..Secondly, curry nandesu (pancake).. 3rd, curry salad, next is curry yaki udon (noodles), 5th, ika meshi curry (squid).. 6th, kushi katsu curry (chicken with rice and tenpura).. 7th, tofu curry and lastly curry udon set.. The white plate in the photo is for fathers' day.. Worth trying because is really very delicious.. Reasonable price.. LOL...

happy 18th birthday

thank you very much for all this.. I really did not aspect all this my dear friends, is just too lovely.. I was really surprised.. My favourite cake, the lovely handmade card from pei jia, the pencil case and the lovely note.. I appreciate, thank you...! [ Happy Birthday ]

Thanks to: pei-jia, melisa, jean-nie, wai tong, chow, joel, jun hung and sean...

happy birthday

happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to kahshin, happy birthday to me... That's all my birthday present, Dell laptop, laptop back-pack and Lancome, miracle perfume.. LOL I'm now 18 years old.., best wishes, may God bless me..

* happy birthday *

LOvely

The fun thing of being a human is, we won't know what will happen the next second.. We always move on moving forward.., trying and trying again to be a better person who leads a better life.. Leaving everything following the flow and not to think too much.. Experiencing life yet living in simple and happy days.. Meeting more friends from different places in your working place and knew about their culture and their life in their home country.. Experiencing days doing part time as a service crew in a Japanese cuisine learning Japanese dishes.. Realizing money is not easily earned, understanding how to work harder and harder in order to earn more money.. Modifying ourselves as days passes in order to smoothen the wheel of life.. Analyzing but struggling in order to find a way out.. Seeking and researching what's the best for ourselves.. Managing and continue trying for a perfect ending :)

A way out

HM aerospace..

you actually regretted

until yesterday night only i know that you actually regretted, you actually wanted to do so when i think so.... But at last you did not.. Don't dwell in the past, concentrate in mind of the present, okiex...? everything just 'follow the flow'... Don't think so much let it go, is too late that now only you let me know..

''Don't dwell in the past, concentrate in mind of the present''

Sushii king

A short meeting at Sushii King with the manager, Kervin Tan.. Wearing that 'shower cap' is because we have a visit into the kitchen.. I will start working as a service crew from Monday.. LOL! Well, this is just to pass time.. Is just too bored staying at home doing nothing..

journey of life

''Challenges are part of life, take each step forward as a challenge and it will only lead you closer to what you dream of''.. In my journey of life, is just the beginning where you have to build up the base which is the basics of life journey.. The basic of life journey is very important, it is the most influential part for the rest of our life.. A dull or bright future is all depend on the basic you build.. Meanwhile, this part is also the most pressured, most headache, most annoying thing.. For those who clearly know what they want and dream for is much more easier compared to those who still without directions.. Those who don't know what to continue with drown in pressure and questions.. Is way too challenging yet difficult to make a choice.. I have a friend who have a dad everyday asking her the same thing, nagging about the same point which is way too annoying.. This father never try to understand his daughter situation and the pressure she is confronting.. Don't think that she don't want to come out with a wise choice, is just that she is afraid to make this step, once is not a wise choice is a wrong decision, her journey of life will be even tougher and bitter in the coming days.. Hmm, for me.. I am not so sure.., there's no worries just that i am afraid I can't manage.. Hopefully everything turn up like what I always dream of.. I am still judging, considering and thinking... -end-

I want to work to keep things out of my mind, don't stop me from working.. No matter how loud you shouted at me, i insisted to work... Keeping myself busy chill me down yet chill my mind as well..

The unavoidable facts

For him, what he do is always the right thing to do while what i do are never right.. Things that i wanted to do or already did is never right.. Everything is like, 'no cannot' ; 'nah you can't do that' ; 'no no no, let him take it' ; 'give him give him'... Whatever he ask for, he will most probably gets it while when i am asking for something, most probably, i won't get it... This is the unchanged theory in my life and is an unavoidable facts.. Caged in old fashion parental theory..

This is how it end up

life sucks..!

Each of us is stuck being who we are.. Sometimes we fight to change ourselves, but ultimately this has little effect. We can change what we do, but we cannot change who we are.. If you're a happy person, you don't feel trapped. But if you're a an unhappy person, you wonder if anything will ever change., and the unavoidable reality..

I hate Smokers...

Say 'NO' to smoking, never try or even think of trying.. It smells, very badly.. Not even that, smoking causes immediate effects on the smoker's body. It constricts the airways of the lungs. It increases the smoker's heart rate. It elevates the smoker's blood pressure. The carbon monoxide in tobacco smoke deprives the tissues of the smoker's body of much-needed oxygen. The worse thing is, smoking harms not just the smoker, but also family members, coworkers and others who breathe the smoker's cigarette smoke which called secondhand smoke. Say 'NO' to cigarettes..!

Trip to Johor

Took a trip down to johor on tuesday morning, started the journey at around 11 morning, and reach Johor Tebrau Mall at around 3 in the afternoon.. Walk around fthe mall for a while, had dinner then went to the Zon hotel and check into a club suite.. LOL...

This helps too~

At times, you have to 'open an eye, close an eye'...

She know what she is doing and she have no regrets, let it go and don't worry...

thank you..

This help~

It helps alot if you just simply **** **

Stubborn yet annoying

Recently, I personally dislike her characters and thinking.. She is just too stubborn and start placing her own thoughts and comments into the incident.. But actually is just something not special and it always happen in the flow of life.. I just don't understand why she have to put in so many of her own old fashion and stubborn thoughts into it.. Is not helping at all instead causing lots of trouble.. Humans grow in courage, learn from mistake and difficulties.. You should always try let go your hand and let them walk out their own road, It might not be easy but at least let them try.. The thing is, it promised they will have no regrets and life goes on.. So please, let it go and put it down.., is nothing special and curious to think or either talk about.. Don't think that will help you to get more information because you will not get any but making more troubles.. Every single human have their own thoughts in mind and they will solve their own problems confront their difficulties, experiencing their life... Challenges are part of life's journey that will only lead us closer to our dreams and hopes, so don't worry, go ahead let them try.. They will have to walk out their own path of life.. Don't ever give ideas or comments, criticize their decisions and drown their confidence.. Not only in that incident but in everything.. If they don't wish you to get involve, never put your feet into it.. Although you are their elderly, but please RESPECT their privacy, decisions and thinking...

KFC

KFC breakast, rm5.30.. 3 to 4 bites will be gone...

is too small for such a prize.. And this ''burger'' have to wait for 30 minutes.. LOL.... that's fond, but it turn out like a piece of ..... when they serve, is already like this.., in a mess..~

McD breakfast is better....~

A relaxing night

A glass of Midori during chatting on9 is just too nice and relaxing..

2009 birthday

21st April is my birthday.. I get a early birthday present this year which i like it very much.. I got a dell laptop from my parents.. It is purple in colour, 4gb ram, 320 hdd.. Thank you..!

The Truth

原来所有的东西都不是真的，会有那样的安排只不过是因为他们看了这个网页...我还是以前不被看见被遗留的人...我懂我从头到尾的地位,我有自知之明，读书不好,样样都没有很出色..还有，我没有隐私叻，连这个能让我说话的地方都被他们拿来读，还讽刺我, 取笑我，把内容当笑话... 有时我不吭声不代表我不介意...我的看法我的决定从来就没有得到他们的支持与鼓励，他们永远只在乎他们自己的看法而忽劣了我的真正需要...很没用吧..？到了现在我很难得有了一个自己做决定的机会，但我根本不懂要如何选择如何前进...我的提议都不被接受，反正他们就要我跟他们就是了...那么一点点的支持都不给我...我本身做什么事都没有信心，很多时候都靠胆...前面的路太黑暗了，我看不清也不会走...真希望我能有一盏灯，带我走向对的道路... 我是个怎样的人有着怎样的未来，我不懂...但希望我能创造一个美满幸福，成功快乐的未来给自己...

national service

She is cikgu Huda, my another dorm's warden... She is only 22 years old.., i am kinda close to her, just like friends.. She is like a kid, likes to play tongue, LOL... Is too much to say about her, and i m kinda lazy, so,,...

national service

She is cikgu Hasliza, my dorm's warden.. She is very pretty, she has thick eye browns, thick and sexy lips, very deep dimple and very fair skin colour.. She seldom mix around with the crowds, she enjoy sitting alone but she is close to out TKJ, cikgu adek.. She is very a straight jurulatih, she always asked me to keep the dorm as clean as possible.. She says if our dorm gets complain, she will look for me,. I am asked to her room twice because the muslims in my dorm did not go for their prayers.. She is really a straight teacher.. However, she is very polite and caring.. Hmm, her body is a little weak as she is pregnant for 3months, her husband is a tentera laut in Perak.. She always not feeling so well and rest in her room.. She is one of the netball team coach.. Her smile is sweet as she has deep dimple, she is a little special.. She seldom laugh, she only smile.. I tired very hard trying to make her laugh with very funny jokes, but i only succeeded once.. She somehow makes me feel warm and belong.. She is very very 'mesra'.. I always look at her whenever she is around because i wanted to see her dimple, LOL.. She looks cute when she do TTS, she corrects me when i do wrongly., is funny the way she show me.. Wishing her all the best and healthy always, best wishes to her coming baby..

national service

This is cikgu Nurul Shafinas, my jurulatih in camp Semarak, Pekan.. This photo is taken during wirajaya, in the 'jungle' doing pondok sehari.. She is a very nice. polite and kind teacher who has a romantic and sweet husband.. LOL~ She likes to smile.. Still remember all the moments we did all the task given together, she is always helpful yet responsible.. She is a new jurulatih in the camp, she is very quiet and passive.. She is very cute and funny sometimes.. We used to play tickle and chat when we have free time.. She is always holding her phone during her rest hour, she has lots of photos in her phone, she loves taking pictures, she enjoy messaging and her sense of romance is overflow.. Her dearly husband send her to work every morning at 6 and pick her up every evening at 6:30., they drive a myvi white in colour.. She is a brilliant teacher..

'''''stuck'''''

since I've completed national service, I've to move on to my next step, which is very difficult to decide.. This is really very tough for me as i really don't know what i afford to do., i get no supports from families but only from my respective coaches.. my coaches gives me a lot of ideas but i still can't find my way out.. no matter what i consider bout, i get no support which makes me afraid to step forward, I'm afraid that i might walk the wrong step that cause accident happens.. My mind is a total blank cause i always get objections.. i really don't know what else can i do as i already lost the rest of my confidence, i have no more strength to build up, please give me a break.! as life goes on, i realized i did NOTHING well.. I love challenges.., curiosity.. what can i do...? # may God lead me to a correct path, Amen.. i am really tired of all this, i just want my life to be simple, families, at least give me some support instead of beating me down n drown the rest of my confidence yet strength.. Please give me some air, find me a window that allows me to get some fresh air, thank you very much....

"hope everything will be just fine and I've made the right choice"

little commens

13 March:
being in love conjures images of happiness, devotion, tenderness and an undying desire to be with someone forever. it dots our life with memories of people, places and moments.. it takes us as high as we could possibly go on the wings of emotion and drops us to the every depths of despair when it is heart wrenching taken from us.. we feel as though our heart shatters into a thousand pieces and then we very possibly fall in love again..remember those special moments when we were falling in loves, or being in love? these moments sing to us.. they fill us up till we overflow.. we get intoxicated~ you smile for no reason, you feel as though you are fleeting, the breeze carries your face; the sunshine warms you.. being near, you can hear yourself better when you rest your head on the shoulder, you hear your heartbeat and all the beats its skipped. going out for every meals is heavenly, the foods somehow taste better, the restaurant more romantic, even the waiter don't seems so annoying.. you get lost when you look at him, you can't seems to turn away, NO, you don't want to turn away, you like looking at him.. we laugh at the jokes aren't funny we'd laugh at how not funny they are.. laughter is effortless, you remember feeling comfortable with him, yet at the same time feeling embarrassed and shy..

tomorrow is a new day

12th March:
at times, things aren't the way u hope it would be, and that's the time u have to tell yourself things will be better, no one says is easy, but take each step forward as a challenge, learn from difficulties, grow in courage.. keep believing in yourself, stay focus on what and how u want your life to be.. challenges are part of life's journey which will only kead u closer to what u dream to have and be..

"things will be better. life goes on"
"she who loses faith, loses ALL"

#may every sunrise and sunset gives me power and strength to go through every challenge and road blocks in my life, Amen...

brand new start

i walked over the dark, and now is a brighter day, a brand new start..
nice and fresh again, LOL... :)

i never thought of letting you go..

everyone is asking me the same question for the past two weeks, and i have thought bout this question for two weeks... the answer is, i never thought of letting you go..
i never thought of forgetting you, i am comfortable with you..
just that our label has change and that's all.. all the others will still be the same like last time..
this is my decision, i never thought of letting you go..

God bless..~

i need strength

and now,
may every sun raise and sunset gives me power to go through all the challenges and road blocks in my life..
may my family and friends gives me more of their love and support..

may i have the strength to go on,....

thank God...~

me and you

may every sun raise and sunset gives you power to bring down all yr challengers and go through every road blocks in yr life.. may yr days fill with laughter, joy and happiness..
wishing you all the best in everything..
'we' are over, come to the end..
from now on, is just 'me' and 'you'.., no longer 'we'...
you for me, me for you,.... is the past.....~
thanks for every happy moment you gave me, i totally appreciates..
i love you., my friend...