life goen on

in three words and only three words i can sum up is, 'life goes on'..!
When everything are nicely done, I will be holding a bowl of tau fu fa, and that is when i can have some rest and less headache.

-angel in the sky, made comfort every night, made miracle -

Please!

I've been whining a lot recently. F*cking stressful life I'm going through these days. Just finish LAN exams last week and I m suppose to be happy that I finally get rid of it but then, things came up. Janda baik programme falls on the coming weekend, then, i have math mock in the following week. The week after I will be having 3hours drill chemistry extra class for two saturdays and universal children's day falls on one of the same weekend. End of the month i will be having my math and economics mock, then cehmistry mock on the following week. And all this is not the end of my busy and hectic yet stressful life, here comes to the headahce part, I've to find a new place to move, best by end of october, worse is end of december.! Please give me a break or just kill me. Finding a place in a nice and convenient environment is totally not easy.! Too little time, too much to be done, too much to concern, too tired! Although i have this 3weeks break starting from the second week of december, but it will be fill with extra classes and it will be a study break that i dont think i even have time to do christmas shopping for everyone and enjoy my christmas celebration. Then is new year, and here it goes, first semester exam, january. In this situation, who else on earth dont whine.? I m going to collapse in a bit.! May you get me out of this and bring me into a world of paradise where I can have a good rest. Amen~

* I need a break *

My mummy

-coming soon-

My 'ah pa'

After SPM examination, i served the national service, after completing the 3 months service, i worked part-time for 2 months, then is time for me to move on to the next step of my life, further studies in Help university College. Somewhere around end of June, my dad and I drove to kl, to register in Help institute, and look around for rooms foe let. My dad, he was so patient on that day, as we are not so fimiliar with damansara area, we actually do alot of wrong turns that day, eventually, we get to the college and registered, then we start finding rooms. We just randomly drove around, and look for rooms for rent. those near ones, walking distance are actually very expensive, so in the end we found this, is Desa Kiara Condo, for temporary due to the time left. 2th of July, I moved in here and that is the day I leave home. My dad, he called me every single day at 8:15. just to ask where are you? have you had your dinner? every single day without failure. once in a while, he will ask do i still have money as he knows i wont ask from him, he bank in me money once in a while, but at most rm700 per month. I know that his business was actually not so good recently, so I always try my very best not to spend so much, I spend every single cents thoughtfully. All the registeration fees, course fees, exam fees, rental and living expenses, he had paid alot, alot, alot.. And now, I had to find some place else to move, as at the first place staying here was temporary, as i m going to move to a further place at a cheaper rent, i need a car as is not convenient to take public trasnport anymore. In this case, i pity him more, he needs to come out with more money. I have a brother who is older than me by a year, so he is entering uni soon, which means, my dad, have to come out with more money. Life here alone was actually not as good as at home for sure, I'm slready here, away from home for nearly 4 months, but I go back kind of often as my dad has a friend who go back every weekend so i can just follow. He arrange me trasport to go home, arrage me transport to come back, pay for what I'm doing and call me everyday without failure. what more can I ask for? Before this, I always thinks that he give more love to my 2 older brothers, and I'm always the last to be seen. but in real, actually is not, I cant say he treat all his kids the same, but at least, now, i felt that i m not transporent, he see me. I'm proud for having him, as my dad. I love you!

* I will try my best not to let you down *

as long as u are happy, nothing else really matters more.

love love love this

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset

She's going off about something that you said

She doesnt get your humour like I do

I'm in the room, its a typical Tuesday night

I'm listening to the kind of music she doesnt like

And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts

She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers

Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find

That what you're lookin for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you

Been here all along so why can't you see?

You belong with me

You belong with me

Walkin the streets with you in your worn out jeans

I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be

Laughing on the park bench thinkin to myself

Hey isnt this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town

I havent seen it in awhile, since she brought you down

You say you find I know you better than that

Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers

She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers

Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find

That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you

Been here all along so why can't you see?

You belong with me

Standin by, waiting at your back door

All this time how could you not know that?

You belong with me

You belong with me

Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night

I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry

I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams

I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understand you?

Been here all along so why can't you see?

You belong with me

Standing by or waiting at your back door

All this time how could you not know that

You belong with meYou belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe

You belong with me

You belong with me

before and after

the one on the left, was 6 years ago.. the one on the right, was brand new.. casual, nice, simple, comfortable, affordable etc....

a little bit of my feeling

I'm doing the same routine day and night everyday, not knowing my directions, my goals my everything. I know just what I'm trying to achieve now but is a lengthy and bored journey towards it. I'm bored with the hectic yet stressful, tiring and colourless life. I'm just not the person who can deal with this, is just too tough and difficult. Looking at it and realizing that is definitely getting tougher each day. I'm just about to fall, I'm falling.. He is here to rescue me, from the dominion of darkness into the kingdom of wisdom. I wanted so much to be just alone, clear thoughts and get ready to go again. Rebuild faith, build a stronger and higher wall. If you look to others for fulfillment, you will never be truly fulfilled. Search direction and heads towards it. We have to first believe in ourselve. If is not you, who? If is not now, when? Reality is faced by everyone, but only capitalized by some. The more you do it, the better you get it! If you want something you have never had, you will have to do something you have never done. Life is not about finding, but creating. Till the end, everything will still be fine. No matter how miserable, Life Goes On.!


" Live well ; love much ; laugh often "